Between Identities
(c) 2007 Brian Madison

I must stay awake
Please help me stay awake
It's light and life my body craves
Please don't leave me home
Don't leave me all alone
Don't leave me lying in my cave
There's nothing left to try
And I don't wanna die
Please help me search for something lost
The buzz of a new dawn
My energy's not gone
The fly before the killing frost

No faith, no spirit, no religion
I'm between identities
No highs, no lows, no mental illness
No rock-bottom turn for me

Let me get to sleep
Please help me get to sleep
It's sleep, it's sleep that my mind craves
Now you can all go home
Just leave me all alone
Stop telling me that Jesus saves
I stalk the streets at night
I've lost my will to fight
Don't mock my failure to appear
Not loved by everyone
No, not the favorite son
It's dreams that save us from despair

No warm bed, cold sweats, nightmare visions
I'm between identities
No mood, no music, booze or Prozac
Just self-destructive tendencies

Let me get to peace
Please help me get to peace
It's peace, it's peace my spirit craves
Help me act my age please help me act my age
Or you can help me dig my grave
Now to the self I know
I deal the crushing blow
I've waited far too many years
To dust that one returns
The ash in my eyes burns
Don't say the truth lies in the tears

No reason, wisdom, or compassion
I'm between identities
No flow, no passion, no direction
Estranged from all humanity

No innocence, burned-out on anger
Nothing gained, but something lost
No fight, no defense, no aggression
I carry on despite the cost

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